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Leaning Over

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The heavy rock that took five people to lift into place on the boulders at the center of our labyrinth has survived the worst that winter tossed its way. It didn’t fall out and roll to the ground. However, it did lean over to a significant degree.

I think it might be a metaphor for how Cyndie and I feel after the number of challenges we have faced in the last few months, starting with the unexpected death of our lead horse, Legacy.

Just as we began to think we were coming to terms with one thing, another challenge would blow in on us. It all pretty much tipped us over to a similar degree. It occurred to us, more than once, that one way to avoid falling to earth would be by simply choosing to jump down of our own volition.

It’s funny. In a way, it took a leap of faith in the first place to get where we are today. Now we have wondered about taking a leap right back out of here, to be done with the struggles confounding our original vision.

The thing is, as crucial a part of our dream as Legacy was, I don’t want his dying to linger as the insurmountable disturbance that extinguished the flame of possibility for good. It doesn’t do proper justice to him or his name. Losing Legacy can be a powerful lesson for us to grasp and embrace.

Really, anything we might accomplish going forward, will be in honor of him and all he contributed here.

This past weekend, for the first time since he died, we witnessed the three chestnuts execute a completely unexpected “Emergency Response Drill.” It was a big deal to us. Legacy, as herd leader, used to initiate these surprise escape drills at feeding time as a way to see he could get the herd moving in a moments notice, even if it meant leaving their food.

They all run away with a full-speed urgency that implies all lives are at stake. At about ten paces away, they pull up short, turn around to assess the situation, and then walk back and finish eating.

It’s invigorating to watch, especially when you just so happen to be standing in the vicinity with a manure scoop, at risk of being inadvertently trampled by their frantic departure.

Neither Cyndie nor I spotted who initiated the drill, but simply knowing the herd is resuming their group behaviors was comforting. I don’t know if this will culminate in a clear establishment of a new leader, but I’m pleased to see they are working on some kind of arrangement.

Cyndie reported that the mares initiated another drill yesterday, while Hunter just happened to be rolling on the wet, muddy ground, which forced him to abort his plan and get back to his feet, pronto.

Yes, they are definitely working on something. Poor guy is outnumbered now, so I won’t be surprised if either Cayenne (who has always behaved like a big sister with him) or Dezirea end up filling the role as primary head of their household.

We’ve all been pushed over a little bit since the start of the year, but we haven’t hit the ground.

Knowing the horses are working things out, and having a brood of new chicks to fawn over, helps provide inspiration for us to visualize righting ourselves and doing Legacy proud.

I think we are making strides toward steadying ourselves to lean into whatever might unfold next.



Written by johnwhays

March 27, 2018 at 6:00 am

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  1. I love the rocks and I love the analogy. Ian’s words certainly resonate with me. Press forward my friend.

    Jim Parker (@drjparker)

    March 27, 2018 at 4:13 pm

  2. Very well written and thoughtful on all that has happened this year. I like the new leaning formation the rocks have shown you this spring so maybe you will like what the next few months will show you also.


    March 27, 2018 at 3:07 pm

    • Thank you! We remain optimistic, despite occasional appearances to the contrary.


      March 27, 2018 at 4:53 pm

  3. Your rock designs are so much a part of who you are, John – perhaps, a part of all of us. Life IS a miracle and we are blessed beyond belief. So we might be shaken but not stirred:-) It pays to remember that the Almighty has a sense of humour. And so I am pleased to witness your balancing acts, defying the odds as ever! Pleased that we are getting ready for the next episode and taking renewed delight in it. Such is life: new depths and dimensions to experience are about to unfold. Mother Nature will rebound if we are up for the ride! Indeed, there are times that she breathes out and life seems to collapse; there are times when she breathes in and bounty spreads like never before. A new day like no other! Much love, as ever, to you, both, and all that you esteem.

    Ian Rowcliffe

    March 27, 2018 at 7:55 am

    • Thank you, Ian! All the best to you and your recently expanded family!


      March 27, 2018 at 8:57 am

      • I think Patricia would settle for ‘extended’ family as she works at getting back shape – enough of ‘expanding’ for the moment:-)

        Ian Rowcliffe

        March 27, 2018 at 10:48 am

      • Hah! Better said. 🙂


        March 27, 2018 at 11:00 am

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