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Bad Vibes

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Sometimes things fail, but why would failures necessarily come in clusters? I don’t have an answer for that right now. Maybe that is because I don’t feel as though I have sufficiently moved past a current cluster yet, and am not able to perceive it from a distanced perspective that will better reveal the complete situation.

Maybe it is just random happenings. I do allow for that possibility.

Yesterday morning I didn’t feel my best when I woke up. Other than a very noticeable headache, I couldn’t identify more than a general weakness and malaise. I considered the idea of willing myself to a healthier vibrancy with mind over body, and mustered a rudimentary effort toward that end. It got me out the door.

Other than a few moments of reward, noticing a visible difference in tree leaves popping just hours apart and pausing the car on our street to share a greeting with our neighbor driving by, the day turned into a series of unfortunate events.

I was mowing the labyrinth path with our reel mower and about halfway through the task, the handle of the mower broke. They sure don’t make things like they used to. Sure, it is probably lighter weight than mowers of old, but lighter tubing doesn’t hold up to normal use! I finished the job by wrestling the mower forward despite the handle being attached on only the left side.

Not feeling up to doing anything particularly strenuous, I decided to take the 4-wheeler out on our trails to establish tracks in the rapidly advancing undergrowth. I guess the worms haven’t completely taken over our forest yet.

Click-click-click-aack-ack-ack-ack was the only sound I got out of attempts to start it. It seems to me the battery is strong enough, and that a solenoid is failing, but I could be wrong. My brain just wasn’t up to the analysis, so no actual data was collected in my crude attempts to force it to work as designed. I’ll need to return to that when in a better state of mind.

I found the landscape pond was so low that the pump for the waterfall was partially exposed. I turned off the pump and inspected for leaks in the tubing or filter. Finding nothing, the likely alternative would be a leak in the lining, which appears to be a rubber fabric they laid over the dirt and then covered with rocks. A lot of rocks. Which will need to be removed to inspect the fabric.

This morning, I walked into the bathroom in the early light of dawn and pressed the rocker switch to turn off the night-light. I turn it off during the day because that little appliance runs so hot that it discolored the plastic cover around the bulb. A moment later, I noticed the light was on again and began to question my sanity.

Luckily, I hadn’t lost my mind. I had turned it off, but somehow the switch was shorting out and the bulb was back on again. I think it wants to try to burn down our house! I toggled the switch back and forth and the bulb stayed lit in every position.

This morning, that just doesn’t surprise me as much as it should. I’m not sure if it is possible to wield mind over matter to the extent I need at this point, but I am going to set my goals well within reach today and hope for success, health, and well-being to rule the day.












Written by johnwhays

May 9, 2015 at 8:11 am

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  1. Hi John: I’ d say you reacted incredibly well. Yes, a really testing day, but you came through it with flying colors. You maintained a healthy perspective whereas another person may have lost it and created irreparable damage. Stephanie sent me an animated version of the Chinese farmer story that addresses this: She sent it after we thought we had lost Luis, which was some wake up call. And so I worked extra hard during the week to compensate. Luis didn’t go as you know but was to come on Friday, but couldn’t as he had to return to his regular job. On Friday, it poured. Nevertheless, I have almost everything in place for a short visit from Patricia today just the same. We faced up well, didn’t we! For the light of the rainbow is amazing, but the day after leaves shadows until the next one – that is only natural, isn’t it? That is part of our appreciation for all that is life, for shadows are also the shade on an extremely hot day. A big hug from us all here…

    Ian Rowcliffe

    May 10, 2015 at 1:56 am

    • And hugs back to you from us! You never know the consequences. That is a great tale. Let Stephanie know that her gesture has made it all the way to me, and that I thank her for that. Give a special greeting to Patricia from us. Today is our Mother’s Day recognition, and as a new mother, she is in our thoughts.
      I will think about the good that comes from bad situations, and the bad that can accompany good results. Kind of fits the threat of too much of a good thing! All the best to you!


      May 10, 2015 at 7:41 am

      • In all that we experience, it is an extra special gift to find and connect with you, John, my brother of all brothers. For come what may, it is great to know that you are out there, sharing in your special way. I marvel still that you were here, but count the blessings that reflect this.

        Ian Rowcliffe

        May 10, 2015 at 10:02 am

      • Your message is a gift I sincerely treasure, Ian. Our time spent together, and all the communication before and since, daily inspire and nourish my energies to mirror and expand on all that you have shown me about seeing the natural brilliance in the world and absorbing information to wisely explore how we can make simple, healthy contributions to a greater good in the world. Brother of all brothers!


        May 10, 2015 at 7:56 pm

  2. Those types of days are frustrating! I hope today is better for you. Annoying that so many things seem to break all at the same time too. Seems to be a common occurrence. I wonder why? Lately I’ve been putting positive thinking cd’s on as I’m falling asleep. Lol! Trying to hypnotize myself 🙂


    May 9, 2015 at 9:42 am

    • Does it seem like it is working? My goal is to let unwanted thing happen without internalizing it. Not a goal I have successfully attained yet, but making progress!


      May 9, 2015 at 1:25 pm

      • I do that too. This does seem to be helping. Might be the repetitiveness of what I’m listening to. I don’t get bored with it because I’m going to sleep anyway. During the day, when I find myself getting anxious or obsessing over something I try to think of phrases from the CD and they pop right into my head. Could be avoidance, lol, not detachment but that’s okay with me for now:)


        May 10, 2015 at 7:53 pm

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