Relative Something

There are days when the urge to do something creative is incredibly powerful, but those times can often manifest for me in something of a paralysis of action. It is an interesting conundrum. However, that is very different from the times when there is simply nothing in the way of inspiration to draw from. Unmotivated, unemotional void. It can be a very peaceful state of mind, unless it occurs at a time when creative production is the goal. That can ultimately result in an increase of angst.

I believe that one very pure antidote for either of these situations will involve a relationship with horses. It is intriguing for me, since I have had very little in the way of interaction with horses for the great majority of my life. The precious days I had the benefit of being with Ian Rowcliffe and their horses in Portugal, are proving to be increasingly special to me, in light of the dream that has developed for Cyndie and me to create our own similar situation in Minnesota.

This all becomes even more convoluted with the unplanned job offer that Cyndie has accepted in Boston. You just never know what is around the corner.

I am growing more able to be “both/and” in my acceptance of what the universe presents for me. It is allowing me to feel comfortable with both the possibility of Cyndie’s and my dream, and the reality that will have us separated for a big chunk of the near future.