Archive for June 2011
Feeling Better
I have gone from hardly being able to move, to successfully riding my bicycle. I doesn’t make any sense to me. I did a little test ride last night and was able to stand and pedal, twist to look over my shoulder, climb a steep hill, and lean forward on a descent without pain. After I rode, I mowed the lawn and felt like I was able to bend more than I have in a week. Biking must be good for my back.
I wish I could trust that the disc wasn’t going to surprise me again at any moment with more painful degeneration. My initial physical therapy appointment isn’t until next Tuesday. That doesn’t leave me much time until the scheduled departure for my annual June bicycle trip. That will be a real test, with not only biking, but daily carrying my heavy duffel bag, setting up and taking down my tent, and especially, sleeping on the ground. That combination is enough to make a healthy back react with pain.
Feeling better physically does wonders for the mental state. Chronic pain is a dangerous affliction for someone with a history of depression. I feel like I am really walking a tight rope with something like this. I’ve lost my favorite therapeutic exercise in being told not to play my regular games of futsal on the wood floor, or any soccer, for that matter. Biking was authorized. It could become a real life-saver for me.
June Arrives
It is the month that, to me, means summer. I wonder if typical summer weather will be very far behind? What we have been experiencing thus far seems less like summer than most years I have in memory.
Summer for us is usually a time of traveling to our vacation spot. After every great weekend at the lake, I find my mind is drawn to revisit the events that just occurred at our paradise. The most recent experience was tainted a fair amount by Cyndie’s and my current circumstances, but there is still enough magic from just having been there that my mind doesn’t hesitate to return. On the night of our big community dinner at the lodge, Cyndie and I left a little early and headed back to our cabin. I left my camera with Julian and asked him to capture some of the atmosphere for me.
There is a grass field by the children’s play area where a game of lacrosse had materialized. We marveled over how the field started out as a place where the kids played wiffle ball. Over time, the game of choice has morphed to volleyball, and then soccer. I was impressed to see that every kid seemed to have a lacrosse stick and knew how to use it. Once again, the times are changing.
With the low light of dusk, the auto settings of my camera captured a fair amount of blur from the kids in motion. I like the effect that creates. I also like the one person lying on the grass, looking skyward as the action is happening beyond him. I sense the lingering reverberations of the kid’s excited shouts and the collection of adult voices in conversation that were happening at the time, behind the camera’s field of view.
This image of our view of the lake from the lodge really appeals to my eye. There is a lot to it, but it is all pretty subtle. The colors in the sky and reflection of the lake are great. I have no difficulty mentally placing myself on the steps of the lodge with the smells and sounds of the wood smoke and loon calls bringing the scene alive for me.








