Relative Something

There can’t be anything more intense than the intensity of absolutely everything this world presents, packed into one microscopic morsel of a moment that presses smack-dab up against another moment which is chock-full to the brim with more of absolutely everything this world presents –overstuffed, really– and then finding that that moment is also wedged against even more moments which all seem to be lined up and approaching, one after another, with no discernible end in sight. At the very same time that all this intensity is radiating over and through us, there occurs some mysterious phenomenon which allows us to simultaneously sense absolutely nothing at all. We take in nothing but a monochrome blur, absent of image or sound, and in reflection, project a hollow stare devoid of any detectable emotion. Everything is there, and nothing is there, all at the same time.

My depressed mind would seem to amplify every possible thing I could think of and then compress it all into an overwhelming tangled concern to be dealt with all at once. It may be that there was a cause and effect relationship, but it was doubly difficult to manage all the issues my dysfunctional mind collected because at the same time there was a gray fog enveloping all the mental processing I was trying to accomplish.

Unraveling it all is no easy task, but it is relatively simple. Even small progress in the direction of healthy thinking will provide changes that tend to pave the way to further improvement. All you need to do is choose to go down that road. And it really helps if you go so far down that road that when you look back, you can no longer see the dysfunctional thinking that you’ve left behind.